Even though I was rather dramatic, I think I miss the way I used to write back then. I wasn't so afraid of sounding cliche or being bothered by ordinary troubles. I never really said what I meant, but I didn't feel the need to be direct. Now I don't say much of anything, perhaps for fear of being misunderstood? Who knows.
As I go back through what I wrote, I don't miss all of the life-or-death situations (though the people in them, always) but maybe the feelings behind them.
What I'm really afraid of, I suppose, is looking back at what I was writing, doing at age twenty and just seeing...nothing.
:/
start writing again. doesn't matter if you like it or not. just keep writing. something you'll like will appear eventually.
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